Home Is Where the Heart Is

Today officially marks 15 days until we move. Things have been so crazy around here lately. We are about half way packed and the moving emotions have officially set in. Moving is a very exciting yet emotional process, I don’t care who you are or how many times you have moved. As someone who has moved approximately 8 times in the past 13 years I can genuinely say it does not get any easier. However apparently, I enjoy risking everything, picking up and moving to a new city every couple of years…or at least that seems to be the reoccurring trend in my life. LOL But in all honesty, there are several different emotions that go along with moving some of which include fear, anxiousness, loss, sadness, excitement and hopefulness.

I am not sure if it is all of the boxes stacking up around me, the empty cabinets or the bare walls but moving provokes many different emotions in me. It makes me realize I will not only miss the place and people I have come to love but I will also miss the person I was while I was living there because I will never be that way again. No matter how many times I have moved I always take myself with me but know that with each move a small piece of me is left behind so a new part of me can be created. I guess this is where the hope and excitement of a new beginning, a new adventure and new possibilities set in. I know with time I will adjust to the grief and loss of leaving friends, the familiarity, the conveniences of the city and my current routine. Although no matter how hard I try there is still the fear. Not the fear of change itself but the fear of the unknown. Will I be happy? Will I be able to make new friends? Will we be successful with our new business endeavor?

However, I have to ask myself are my feelings of security really connected to the city and apartment I currently live in? In all honesty, no, it is the “home” I have created with my husband and it is our relationship I can truly rely on most. I know in my heart as long as we are together we will be at home, home is where the heart is after all, and as my little family of two move forward with this big move I am so thankful we have each other.

XOXO,

South Texas Blonde